Unpredictable Life! Have you felt like this ever? One moment, you feel all fine, and another second of your life brings experiences that you never want to experience.
I am facing a hard time getting out of the mental state I am in right now. One moment I tell myself it´s okay but, after few seconds, my eyes are all teary. Till now, you might be wondering why I am feeling like this?
Here is the story:
I had an interview the other day and, I was excited. I was waiting for an opportunity like this for over two years. I was all prepared for the interview. I believed that I would get through. I knew I was the lucky one amongst many for getting an opportunity like this. I told myself that I have to crack it anyhow because this can change my life.
How often do we get a golden opportunity we dream of? Not so frequently, right? I also got that one chance to change my life. I was confident and nervous at the same time. I was confident because I believed that I deserve it. But nervous because I cannot afford to lose it. Many personal things were related like moving to my own flat, starting a new life, and telling the world how being single I am capable of managing my life.
The interview started off well. But as the questioning started my brain froze. I don’t know what happened. I was prepared and confident but at the time of interview, I just snapped! I knew but I couldn’t speak. I don’t know what happened and why this happened. This interview would have changed my life completely. But it did not go as I expected.
Right after the interview as I hung up, I felt so empty. I did not know what to do and what to say? Like everything ended. The result was not declared but I knew that I did not give my best. It hurt bad. I could not sleep for two days. My brain was constantly playing the same thing that happened in the interview. I could do nothing but just cry.
They say you will get more opportunities:
I know that I will get opportunities but I wish I could explain to them how badly I needed it at this time of my life. After being pulled down by a lot of people, I just had this opportunity to prove myself but it did not go as I thought. Unpredictable Life! Have you felt like this ever? Did you ever had such an experience? Please share I would love to know.
It feels bad, but I am trying to be positive and not think much. But you know what, it is easier said than done. I still start crying for my stupidity. There are moments when I feel lost but I believe that God has surely thought of something better than this for me. Convincing myself to wait for my next sign and opportunity.
No matter how hard it gets, no matter how dark it seems, just do your bit and surrender to the almighty, the universe will take care of the rest.